New Home + New Worries

a few weeks ago, i received a letter from hdb saying that we are shortlisted for the flat in tiong bahru... =) i am very happy for a while before i start worrying again... next week, we are going to select the flat and pay the option fee... i think within three months, we would have to sign the lease and also by that time, get ready the housing loan letter and stuffs... everything seems to be going quite fast... when the flat is ready, den have to worry about renovating the flat... though we haven gotten the flat, everytime we go to courts or ikea, we would be discussing about wat furniture we want and how we wan the house to be like... hahaha it's a totally new experience for me... cuz i have not moved before... the only time was moving from kampong to hdb when i was two years old... obviously i cant rem anything about that... so my house has made some changes from time to time but overall it is the same... i wonder if it would turn out to be wat i wan... haiz, i still think the new hdb flats are very small compared to my house... :s

financially it is very worrying... now i am still repaying my education loan... and my house is coming soon... and i am thinking of putting braces as well... and i wanna go miyazaki, japan in october to visit suyu... haha i think i am too greedy... bcuz i wanna do so many things, i dun think i would be able to save up like my sis does and pay upfront liddat! but i am really that kind of person... i cant just save up and force myself to be miserable... i rather pay slowly and life is still within my control... i can still go occassional shopping and go out with frens... =p well well, let nature takes its course...

also after much consideration, i decided to quit my present job to go for another job... why?? i really love this job... the colleagues and children... haha but sometimes i really feel sick and tired of this job... i guess everyone would have this kind of feeling from time to time... and the pay isnt good enough... i am not asking to earn alot... but i wanna repay the loan and start paying for my house... with a mere amount like tt, i dun think i can make it... somemore i dun think i am high maintenance... so with a higher pay, i would be able to do more things... for this to happen, i gave up my chance to take a basic course offered by the company... by sept, i would have to say goodbye to everyone and i gotta make sure i really do that k? if not, i would be laughed at again... :(

another thing is about feeling comfortable and at home... though from time to time, i stayed over at his place, i still feel at home when i am really at my own house... with my parents and my siblings... talking rubbish and watching tv together... its more fun and more relaxed... over at his place, its very much of us interacting only... with his bros interacting with the computer... -_-" the whole feeling is just weird... not getting used to it... so just imagine how lonely i would be if he were to go out and leave me alone at home... omg... >.<" *kangae takunai*

with the new house, a lot of adjustments would have to be made i guess... in terms of financially, psychologically etc... his mum is actually suggesting meeting my parents... i feel like "huh? need meh? feels like those olden days type of parents-meetup..." think i have to ask my mum about tt... haha tts all for now... gotta rush to work now... my body is aching from the swim yesterday... :s